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Thank you for sharing your story, the line “logic doesn't matter when you’re feeling vulnerable” spoke to me so loudly. This piece was a beautiful way to capture so many emotions.

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Thank you Lindsay! I’m so glad that resonated with you. It’s a helpful reminder to me when my logical brain tells me I’m being too much.

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Thank you for sharing your heart here. I love the image of a forest full of fulfilled desires and your acknowledgement of that even in the hard season of unknowing. May the Lord bless you with another tree in that forest on your journey through this.

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Thank you Kim, I really appreciate it!

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Oh my goodness, footnote number 2 made me laugh out loud. I relate to much of your journey! With you in the sorrow and joy 🥹

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Thank you! I thought it was pretty funny too. :)

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I feel your words so much! As someone in the same boat, you never want anyone else to have to experience the heartbreak of infertility, but it’s always encouraging to hear those who are share their stories. Thanks for sharing 🫶🏼

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Yes! I felt that way growing up when I’d meet another kid with divorced parents. It’s bittersweet because you don’t want people to know hard things but it makes you feel so much less alone.

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Thank you for sharing these vulnerable words 💕

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Thank you so much for sharing this, Becca. "Those things can be true and I can still feel a heaviness in my heart. They aren’t mutually exclusive." This line really resonated with me! You are right. I am praying now for you and your family in this season.

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"No, the part of me that hurts so much—even tip-toeing around it brings tears—is the idea of surrender. It’s the dying to self that comes from trusting God that feels like it might break me apart.

Logically, I know it’s irrational. My life is a testament to God’s goodness and faithfulness. Exhibit A: Wesley. But logic doesn't matter when you’re feeling vulnerable. It’s also not necessarily the trusting God, part. It’s the not knowing that untethers me."

Whew.

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This is beautiful and raw and tender 💛

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Thank you! I definitely almost didn’t write it because it was feeling very raw.

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